“Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.”
Am I entirely ready to have God remove all of my defects of character, not just a few? Not always. Some of them are like a security blanket. They are a smelly blanket of comfort and familiarity. The smell keeps people away, forcing me to put my blanket of defects away from time to time. It is when I feel insecure that I reach for its warmth again. The biggest part of this equation for me is what I truly believe about God. Do I believe that God is strong enough or even cares about me en
ough to remove these defects? To heal what appears to be broken in me? Sometimes that answer is no. That is when I surrender to the defect and not to God. I was taught
that I couldn’t stop participating in a behavior without replacing it with something of equal or greater value. Otherwise, I would go back into the behavior. Do I feel God is of equal or greater value than my defect? How can I give up something, even something harmful, if I do not believe in my heart of hearts that I have a sufficient substitute? In order for me to step across a bridge that is shaky and take the hand outstretched, I have to believe that hand is strong enough to not let me fall.
Alcoholics Anonymous is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from alcoholism.
The only requirement for membership is a desire to stop drinking. There are no dues or fees for AA membership; we are self-supporting through our own contributions.
AA is not allied with any sect, denomination, politics, organization or institution; does not wish to engage in any controversy, neither endorses nor opposes any causes.
Our primary purpose is to stay sober and help other alcoholics to achieve sobriety.
Before there was a "Big Book", Twelve Steps, Twelve Traditions, the "AA Grapevine" or General Service -- before there were meetings, clubs, conventions or any AA literature -- before there was an H&I committee, there was a visit to an Akron hospital where "one drunk talked to another."